I have been in some up and downs lately, and in the end, I know that God will be glorified.

Yesterday really sucked, because I was pitching in practice, hoping to turn some heads and get some attention from coach that I could get some more innings. Not the results i was looking for. I threw an inside pitch to our starting catcher and he was bunting. He just barely tipped the ball, probably traveling between 82-84 mph, and it went into his mouth, knocking out a tooth, and distributing all of the other ones all over his mouth. It was awful. After that I just gave up hit after hit, so it is very possible I pitched my last game as a Bearcat. I will still be waiting for an opportunity, but I wouldn't pitch me if the game was anywhere close to on the line. Ugh.

I will find a way to Praise God through this, but it's tough.

Spiritually, i've been awakened to the power and presence of the Holy Spirit. I was raised in a conservative denomination, and we never really talked about gifts of the Holy Spirit. I have recently listened a lot to Calvary Chapel radio, good ole KRSS Tarkio, and also a new church plant in town. It has been really good and good to build up my faith.

I have also just really become completely abandoned from what I used to want. I know that it's worth nothing. The American dream, the collaboration of stuff, just isn't worth it. God is great though, and I'm so so so so thankful for Jesus's sacrifice on the cross. Grace is so beautiful.

I have been listening to some fire and brimstone Baptist preaching which has convicted and inspired me. If you have some time on your hands, here is the link.

http://www.heartcrymissionary.com/resources/sermons/paul_washer

As you can read, it's Paul Washer, who is kind of notorious for being a hard preacher, but I think his message is something we can learn from. So, I hope maybe it blesses you. I would suggest "examine yourself" or "the narrow way" but they are all good. Very very conservative messages, but good.

God continues to prune me for his service, and it's painful, but in the long run, i'm sure it will be better for me.

God is Love